Writing this with headphones on
While streaming Eminem’s Mockingbird,
May have let a second party in but
Nothing ever happened
Regretting every bit of that would be their portion.
Listening to this song floods a lot of nostalgic memories
About the first acquaintance meetings in the office, Facebook and all
All was heavenly and a little action sparked anxiety and butterflies.
When the old man would invite for coffee but was not available
Cause was in the sheets shielding from the cold weather.
The alarm was no longer functional and letting it snooze to silence was the trend
Would wake later and hurriedly have a cold shower and run
To try and show up for the coffee in time
Later in the day, it was a matter of discussion and always prayed
That jealousy and suspicion would not poison
Then song was a favorite but always sparked envious feelings
Whenever it played because it was a reminder that there
Existed another greater bondholder and deposing them
Was absolutely not a possibility
As expected, fear and insecurity became as core
Totally different lifestyles and views about everything
Did not help solve the situation
Not to mention the remorse that another bond, had been ruined
Probably sturdier and more faithful to what was forming
The little disagreements, all revolving around the same thing,
Added insult to injury.
The farewell was a bad row that mystified everything
And an online regret was not as real as a physical one
So when a long time crush showed up
Resisting the allure was totally outta question
Esteemed was the fact that honesty and
Truthfulness were practical
And despite the reaction,
The confession had to come anyway.
Reviving all that there was,
An effort that left one side frustrated
They say ‘If you make a bed, so you must lie’
Hesitant of where to step and place feet
Because a trip would be fatal and recovering is a tall tale.
Straightening up and stiffening that upper
Lip and holding them back.
Inability to change and salvage what is left
Is like being strapped by the feet and turned upside down